Restart

            Ok,  so I admit, I've been slacking a bit on this forum.  It's hard for me to come up with some content after sitting at my computer  talking to clients the last thing that I want to do is work on a computer at the end of the day.  It's hard trying to fit in the time and the motivation to excersise, we have all been there.

         I think I took care of the yellerjackets in the past few weeks, and our bedroom is now very nicely insulated for both temparature and ambient outside noise ( living next to a hospital is kind of hard when the air ambulance comes in over the top of the house... a lot less noticable in the middle of the night now)  and my Field Staff duties for TOPS ( Take off Pounds Sensibly) is winding down for the year, so I find myself with a bit more time realizing I miss sharing my story.

        So in a sense - this is a restart.  A lot of the past few weeks being as busy as I have been I have been moving a lot more and have been losing the weight slowly, now I feel that I need more motivation and another goal to set short term.  I find myself though kicking myself, wishing I could have done things a bit differently, and I would be farther ahead on things, I know that in my logic- analytical left side of my brain that this is not reasonable; yet my right feeling brain side keeps having an inner dialogue that says see- told ya... so there it is.  The Obverse and the Reverse of the same coin.  It seems like I am always trying to play my logic against my emotions.  How did Spock ever reconcile that?

      One of the things that I have been talking about at my TOPS chapters in my chapter visits is about restarting...There are two points to a restart, don't dwell on what has passed, no matter what you won't ever be able to get that back, be it time.. what has passed has passed, and also second about forgiveness...

       One of the hardest things for a human to be able to do is to forgive ourselves for our own transgressions.  We have to be able to look at ourselves as we are now in the mirror and accept ourselves for who we are right now before change can occur and to do that we have to realize that it's ok to screw up.. it's ok to have a setback.... as long as you pick yourself back up again and keep moving forward... and I have to not come down that hard on myself either....

     See you all lighter....

Drew