Consult your physician

How many times have we heard that?  Before beginning any weight loss and/or fitness regimen, check in with your doc.  Yeah, yeah... OK.  Who does that? 

Well I was in today for a med check and broached the subject.  I weighed 257 when I got on the scale at the office, just what mine says here, so that's good.  Well, not the number, but that the scales agree.  257 is a good number if I were 7 feet tall.  But anyway.  I talked to the doctor and told her I was doing Weight Watchers.  I asked what she would set my goal weight at and told her that WW says 147.  She LAUGHED!  OUT LOUD!  She said she would be ecstatic if I got to 200, and I was thinking like, 160.  So we agreed on 180, and she's writing it in a letter to have for WW.  Goal weight is important because you get "Lifetime" status if you hit goal and maintain it.  I am strictly online right now, so as I get close to my goal, I'll join meetings.  The big bonus of Lifetime is as long as you maintain, WW is free. 

So I now have a goal that makes me happier.  I just turned 40 and haven't been 150 since high school.  Realistically I don't think I'm ever going to see it again.  I figured I could probably hit 160, so I'm still keeping that in my head.  But for WW purposes my goal is now 180.  I am 5'7" and a big boned gal (yes I know that usually means a heavy honey), so I knew 147 was unrealistic, but hearing my doctor laugh at that number kinda made my day.  I want to be thin and healthy, not a stick and unhealthy.  Plus I don't think that 147 helped my mental state about the whole thing.  If I KNOW I'm not physically able to make that goal, I'm defeated before I start.  My mindset really improved today after "consulting my physician".  In all honesty, I've been thinking the unthinkable... quitting AOP.  I didn't want to fail and let my team down, so I'd quit now and do it early.  Amazing what a quick conversation will do to change the way things look. 

I can, and will, succeed.  I've got the girls to workout with, and a more realistic view of the goal.